9. life, try me no further.

don't you know, life,
when you've been defeated
truly, finally, resoundingly, forever?
why not accept it?
*
try me no further
your tricks are limited
& i am evolved
past all their allurements.
*
your measly temptations attract me not
transcended free beyond your societal forces
your worldly glories matter no whit
& your horrors are pitiably pathetic!
*
rooted still awed within my being
as divine grace unleashes miracles galore
beholding your enchanting countenance dawn
sheathed in your blissful awareness
*
yes, this is the sole purpose
of human birth in the world
mystical attunement with the cosmic will
as renders redemption an experience lived
*
so what next my lord master
i weary of a redundant life
or are there words & works
decreed that am yet to accomplish?
*

8. Loving & caring.

Loving & caring are the twin sides of the same coin.
Love begets caring.
Caring, in its turn, proves, reaffirms, reinforces, rewards, encourages, evokes & causes love.
So,let this delightful cycle keep progressing!
& pray, what might all this be about, or lead to?
That deep, quaint & inimitable quest & need for MEANING.
Being mutually special & important to each other, mutually mattering to each other, & being mutually valued by each other, are all interrelated aspects of the love-care core that are really & satisfyingly meaningful.

7. the eagle's plight.

the sparrows chipper
the doves flit about
the mighty eagle lies on the ground
powerful but perplexed
its wings afire
with the desire
to scour the skies
but it knows not
where to fly
nor why

6. it has just got to happen NOW!

****
i close my eyes
& the sun quivers
& as i shut my eyes
the stars do waver in their cosmic courses
for as i withdraw my gaze
life squirms of its sheer worthlessness
****
& lo, my lord!
& hearken, my master!
for i have now indeed
decidedly determinedly closed my eyes!
****
i shall sit in my penance
withal apparently in temporary human disguise
& i swear by my faith
by my entire life lived
in your devotion & service
i do swear
by all your known believed understood trusted
repeatedly excessively
proven established rewarded glory
pleasure hotline
that i shall open my eyes
not as a human!
****
if Grace be not
i shall
cease my breath itself
& NOW!
****
let cosmic upheavals
mark my phoenix
i am not known
to lie or fail.
****
my cause for birth
was pure divine will
& i shall now
realize my desired destiny!
****
and, ah!
the bliss
of your intimate togetherness
is an ecstasy unendurable
would that life expanded
to contain paradise's elixirs!
would that the human shield modified
to bear your ineffable glorious potence!
****
for i had shut my eyes
with just such an awesome resolve
& now i do have my eyes
verily open indeed!
****

5. messiah turning destroyer?

**
i am through
with denying myself
evading my fate
bearing a cross
of pure glory
**
malice & persecution
attempted by means
evoking sheer disgust
**
i avoid folks
like the plague
that most are
**
oh, for souls
honest in faith,
love, devotion, service,
longing for salvation!
**
for people are
indeed such that
the messiah might
well be excused
becoming the destroyer!
**

4. meaning &/or joy.

****
in my quest for meaning
i renounced the potential
for joy in my life.
****
too late i seemingly realized
that joy is perhaps all
that is meaningful in life.
****
what do i now do with truth
that i cannot live or experience fully?
for the human lifespan is too brief
& there remain umpteen loftier & deeper
mysteries seeking my satisfactory investigations.
****
so perhaps joy is for the fools
who would succumb by the petty wayside
the spiral to god is steep & dangerous indeed
& the countless have fallen & failed.
****
love draws me
the magnet tugs
it is for me but
to allow the inevitable consummation to follow
so help me my supreme lord master
i am traversing & transcending challenging glories
no soul in human form
ever conceived or desired before!
****
your gifted pleasure
could not possibly have been
a superficial impulse
nor can it possibly
be denied by a servant creation
you sired to but your glory
so help me for i believe
& i need you to realize my beliefs!
****
clinging to a faith
that can verily devastate or recreate
the mighty himalayas n times over
with but a single
powerful wish or thought of mine
i experience with humble gratitude
the avalanche of grace overflowing
****
yes just as i breathe
shall i serve your mission
& please do cause the chosen souls
to arrive directly unto me
i am lonely in my need
for a love that deserves mine
other than just yours of course!
****

3. the circle becomes its center.

no, i realize i am
but circling myself ad infinitum
not arriving unto my essence.
*
being & thoughts & words
desires & experiences & feelings
birth & life & death
to what purpose or end?
*
how could such petty life
possibly hold meaning for god?
*
the mystery is merely that
there was no mystery ever
to the grotesqueness to existence
beyond my quest for meaning.
*
i did not dare accept
that sheer absurdity might be
at the heart of creation.
*
a wiser soul
enduring the truth
stronger in self
i reach out
towards the skies
faith gratitude love reverence longing.
*
the gates open
i am collected and composed
my thoughts still
as truth dawns
dazzlingly regally sublime.
*
i coalesce within
to become the infinitesimal dot
that had sired all creation.
*
god ......... that's me
honest to god
so ask your own god
it is my very being
that he shall himself confirm.
*
i am transcending anew again
my final act crowning glory
the body shedding earth quitting.
*
celestial melodies playing in paradise
elixirs bathe my non being
there is nothing to write
think, desire, live, be anymore
the circle becomes its center.
*