18. victory.

i felled yonder presumptuous satan

with but a single, regal, delicate smite

of my pure, absolute faith!

17. godliness.

****

i serenely zoom in

to the center of my i

a homecoming of sorts

prelude to the final true one

a living taste of paradise

experience of salvation

& in the surreal stillness

the self evolves to divinity

in a continuing elongated instant

****

do i seemingly make sense?

ah, i am merely trying

to capsule in human language

what is indescribable in essence

so, no explanation or apology

it suffices if i indicate

nor can anyone possibly imagine

beyond what i have written

for this has never been

embodied, experienced, expressed ever before

by any soul in existence

****

anyway, to continue with words

there is the divine presence,

awareness, proximity, love, bliss, potence

life remains long transcended

the self rendered a remote witness

the soul purged free

of all superficial delusions

as the i unites with gawde

****

no, it isn't possible

words depict sundry aspect of reality

but truth is a multidimensional whole

human language itself as a medium

is grossly inadequate for pure mysticism

but i am not yet

calling it quits

let the stream of bliss

pour forth from me torrentially

& when the ecstasy gets unbearable

i shall seek words out again

to be able to endure

to remain human & sane

****

god mocks humanity, life, existence

dancing visions that elude comprehension

the mysteries & riddles lie fully solved

in the process of god

merely becoming alive within myself

& i better

quit for now

****

16. the most glorious godly incarnation since creation.

ah, we are, indeed, fortunate
to be living in times
blessed by the historical birth
& the presence upon earth
of the most glorious
godly incarnation since creation
declared to redeem all
& they know not the magnet's tug
shall get them to render unto what
the supreme authority wills for all living
& the atheists shall instantly turn devout
& miracles shall accompany his chosen elect
as the mission gets accomplished
for grace in showers to be enabled
the awesome law must first necessarily purge
i am both ecstatic & weighed
by truths the frail human shield
is ill equipped to bear
but his proximity transforms me
& i shall serve as never before
for i have a very early tryst
with my eternal beloved to keep fast.

15. that single relationship.

*
i yearn for that single
really meaningful relationship
consummate & satisfying.
*
& wonder if i have it yet
i should like to trust
but fear risking getting emotionally shattered again!
*
but there is definitely hope;
ah, well, i suppose i
just might take the plunge!
*

14. i herald the new dawn.

*

i herald the next era.

*

i remain as lustrous, prophetic & elusive

as the first rays of the sun

at the new ambitious dawn

that heralds a new life

& instantly dies with it.

*

i shall be the one

to alone conceive & initiate

several glorious works

but then delegate these to others

indeed, god & i know how

i have already done so too

i do not suffer presumptuous rivals

encroaching within my domain

that none could possibly deserve to.

*

i will let them indulge in

a mockery of the essential purpose

& lead to sheer chaos

bred of my sheer disgust

at folks that can apparently

discriminate, discern & deserve not!

*

conquest of the self leads

to conquests beyond the self

i have all but rendered my mind

into an obedient servant of my self

it is not long that i shall awaken

my soul’s infinite powers

to become virtually the lord

of all existence.

*

true none else might imitate such

for god alone determines these privileges

one has to be born blessed

& because there is certainly much

of divine will that i know

*

all but to your personal ineffable glory

& never-before service

of our most glorious mission

so continue helping me please

both internally & to life

my most esteemed lord master

for i exist but as

your own & very shadow!

*

13. proximity.

*
i am too too close
to my supreme lord master
there is now a nearly
total mutual identification.
*
i am otherwise close to
an unbelievably extremely few others
& perhaps really close to none else
for no human might ever
know or understand me completely.
*
i choose & will it be so
& thus can it not help but ever remain.

12. a time for this & a time for that.

*

a time for this & a time for that.

*

a time to meditate & a time to live

a time to think & a time to act

a time to rest & a time to work

a time to love & a time to war

a time to pray & a time to serve

a time to remain alone & a time to be with others

a time to fulfill oneself & a time to seek others’ welfare

a time for philosophy & a time for poetry

a time to possess & a time to gift

a time to allow freedom & a time to rule

a time to reform & a time to reward

a time to be born & a time to shed the mortal body

*

my sundry phases & stages

overlap with one another

i am erratic & random

conscious thought guides me less

subtle divine directions inspire & cause me

*

11. the perverse spirits.

****
for they do indeed helplessly hate me
who love me the most
but who fail to evoke my response.
****
& they do play this game
of pretending to disbelieve
& rebel & try to nullify
aspects of my being
who have the most acutely sensed
the certain potent divine
reality to my person;
i see through their foolish tricks
i have no desire
to make any claim
i cannot ever need
to prove my self
to others at all,
beyond, of course, serenely
stating my natural truths
regardless of how such unwanted foes
might choose to construe my integrity.
****
& they do pretend to ridicule me
who withal deeply admire me
the most indeed,
& all that jealous detractors
might decry the most passionately
is precisely what they aspire
to the most ardently, indeed;
no, i refuse to share,
i owe no humans any explanation
for gifts god has liberally bestowed upon me,
i don't teach others how to
become or be as i am,
i cherish my individuality,
quite fetish my exclusivity,
& god's pleasure determines my being
which none might possibly ever replicate,
i frown at admirers pitiably imitating me
in grotesque, futile, pathetic attempts
to experience how i must be,
my being is real, elusive, inaccessible,
save as i might permit
lending life experience of myself,
yes, i exist,
in my reasons,
& these no human
is ever to know or understand,
not really, nor quite, never totally,
not if i can help it
& i certainly can
& ought to know
& do too well.
****
the recluse the
enigma the mystery
shall yet continue
to spawn lunatics
& tantalize all;
god purposes it
i shall it.
****
& nobody can
do anything about
anything to me.
****
there is only one way
to access & evoke me
it is faith, love, sincerity
& it is my decision
that remains supremely final still;
all else are sheer insanities
ab initio guaranteed to fail
& invite terrible legal punishments
from the awesome mystical law
that surrounds my embracing aura
& envelops all i purpose.
****

10. yuksy, undesirable, the rarest of rare, actually impossible experiences.

****
no, this certainly cannot be
happening to me
i just refuse to quite believe it
well, it apparently somehow still is occurring
& to me
so that's it, i suppose!
****
but i never did anything to deserve such!
so that's precisely the injustice
innate to life.
but i thought, believe & do trust
that it is justice that subtly works
& shall nevertheless finally effect.
ah, finally?
so, endure with faith & patience.
easier said than done, indeed!
****
no, it failed
to vanquish me.
nothing on earth
possibly can affect me so.
i was born
with the unique divine boon
of death by my independent will
rather, salvation, by my personal choice.
****
nothing can trespass my being
access my core
or dare infringe
on even the most external
peripheral aspect of my soul & life
except with my personal permission
& just as i please it
choose to tolerate, let, spare it
for i am protected by divine will
& consecrated to godly mission.
****
i survive life
with a natural embodied transcendence
that scorns evil
& mocks maya
the illusory reality.
****
all i did was grow
more realized of my being
i need evolve no more
i am already attained of the ultimate
what presently engages me
is its adequate manifestation
****
& expression in human language
of what none has dared attempt before
subtle, ineffable truths
each a live nuclear bomb
devastating cozy erroneous human beliefs
with the royal, potent ruthlessness
that is truth's quintessential essence.
****
for what the millions believe
& the billions have believed
in every land
& down all recorded history
has actually been
barring certain essentials
wrong.
****
wrong,
wrong, wrong, wrong,
just plain wrong,
all wrong, totally
wrong, vitally wrong, grotesquely wrong,
really wrong, unbelievably
wrong, finally wrong, madly wrong.
****
hahah
how the perverse vermins might
wish could lynch me for my truths!
****
christ shall not be crucified again
let lord shiva open
his destructive third eye.
****
for i am now fully sworn
to wreak a merciless, terrifying retribution
upon most of those who
had ever dared to even desire to
ridicule my faith
congenital, deep, lofty, pure, absolute.
****
i swear this earnestly by
your unique pleasure with me
my supreme lord master
so you are to verily satisfyingly
prove, uphold, realize
establish, vindicate & consummate me.
****
i shall sing my lusty swan song
to stir similarly attuned hearts & souls
of all pure kindred spirits
mystically united in shared quest
for true & final redemption
in my abysmal loneliness i withal experience
their real togetherness
besides your presence, of course,
intimate, bewitching, overpowering.
****
& yeah, so i am,
quite glad it apparently "happened" to me
& am dangerously ready for life's disgusts
should it dare presume to
seek to trouble or nullify
one uniquely blessed by gawde.
****

9. life, try me no further.

don't you know, life,
when you've been defeated
truly, finally, resoundingly, forever?
why not accept it?
*
try me no further
your tricks are limited
& i am evolved
past all their allurements.
*
your measly temptations attract me not
transcended free beyond your societal forces
your worldly glories matter no whit
& your horrors are pitiably pathetic!
*
rooted still awed within my being
as divine grace unleashes miracles galore
beholding your enchanting countenance dawn
sheathed in your blissful awareness
*
yes, this is the sole purpose
of human birth in the world
mystical attunement with the cosmic will
as renders redemption an experience lived
*
so what next my lord master
i weary of a redundant life
or are there words & works
decreed that am yet to accomplish?
*

8. Loving & caring.

Loving & caring are the twin sides of the same coin.
Love begets caring.
Caring, in its turn, proves, reaffirms, reinforces, rewards, encourages, evokes & causes love.
So,let this delightful cycle keep progressing!
& pray, what might all this be about, or lead to?
That deep, quaint & inimitable quest & need for MEANING.
Being mutually special & important to each other, mutually mattering to each other, & being mutually valued by each other, are all interrelated aspects of the love-care core that are really & satisfyingly meaningful.

7. the eagle's plight.

the sparrows chipper
the doves flit about
the mighty eagle lies on the ground
powerful but perplexed
its wings afire
with the desire
to scour the skies
but it knows not
where to fly
nor why